sum1 actually understood me. she could've broken my barrier but i didnt allow her to.i didnt want her to. she's actualli sum1 i expected would understand me long b4 but onli now did i open up but a little to her n what she said was no doubt true. but how do i change when the whole of my life i'm brought up with this kind of mindset? i wasnt meant to do anitin that was said by her.

i hate to sae it but i had to pretend when she said i was sad. cover it up with a smile n a laugh that didnt even mean it. i'm able to that. y? coz 18 years of my life i've been doin so. i am a jumbled up complicated guy inside, telling ppl another story of hu i am. but i've been so used to this life that i'm able to act like my life is perfect and move on. its not easy to understand me. even if i told u the hook n crook of my life. u still wont understand me.

ppl can sae that he or she can understand me n has been dere b4, but if my heart n mind was adjusted with a loudspeaker, it would have said 'FUCK OFF, u don't'.

alrite thats aboud it. hahax. :)