how life has been..

well... currently b'dae jus passed so i AM a legal smoker.. not flaunting just proud of it coz i was kinda waiting for it for a while.. to not feel scared to smoke in public ya know..

lets go to the topic of school.. school has kinda been like hell for me.. not goin school n stuff as usual.. it came to an extent where i got debarred.. lecturer called up my parents and my dad resorted to scolding vulgarities at me.. well i'm used to this shit but i lied down on my bed n think thru things.. i thought i cant be like this for the rest of my lives.. so far its been kinda difficult.. feeling tired all the time.. jus attending class from 8-5 and not even paying attention is already this tiring.. n i have to study n stuff.. dammit.. its tough rite now.. waking up in the morning is starting to be a habit even on sats and sundaes.. its stressful jus thinking aboud school n all the things i have yet to do n projects n hw n attendance.. so its jus that.. i gotta do it no matter wad but i'm taking it slow yet its not enuff n i kinda noe that.. but...

next up, friends... i got 3 circle of frens.. hermanos, slackers n poly.. each one have been there for me.. each one making me smile n laugh n brightening my dim dae.. i owe them.. n i njoy talking to them n blogging aboud them nonetheless.. each of them have open up their hearts to me.. sharing their burdens n problems.. understanding each one.. advicing and helping them.. i am blessed with these good friends.. bcoz right now they'll all i have.. but i noe deep inside my heart i'm lookin for one i could confide in.. someone who i can reali rely on.. sum1 i can love.. share my life with.. someone whom with i wouldnt repeat my mistakes again.. i'm willing to wait.. for that certain sum1.. n i hope that certain sum1 comes soon..

the camera is sumtin i paid for.. u dont get it do u.. jus stop talking aboud it.. its stupid.. its not worth talking to me nor arguing with me aboud the camera.. so stop blogging aboud it.. n tell the whole world that i'm a bastard.. if i am, i'll hurt more then jus one person other then u.. stop judging me oready.. dont think u still noe me.. so forget it.. right now even i feel its worthless to even type out this paragraph aboud u.. but i jus have to make my point.. STOP IT ABOUD THE FREAKIN CAMERA.. it ends now.. n settle the freakin bill.. ur wasting my time.. change the name or cancel it then maybe u can save enuff for a camera since it means so much to u.. n make it quick..

orite then.. thats aboud it ppl... for now...