been awhile since i blog.. had no intention to blog due to certain reasons of my own..
but tonight i decided to blog aboud how my life has been b4 the past 17 years of my life becomes a memory.. life started as a young boi.. naughty and mischievious.. alwaes causing problems here n there n giving those probs to my parents.. n my parents in the other hand, who have never been in good terms as long as i could remember.. kindergarden was forgotten.. primary school not so exciting.. my 1st crush in primary school.. the girl named atiqah.. it became a memory n secondary school became the present at the age of 13.. met my brothers haris and aslam n azzrul on the 1st dae of school.. 2 years passed with me flirting around.. remembering my nerdy self.. chasing after gals.. mostly chinese.. hahax.. i made close frens.. haris especially.. i remember arguing with him n having fights.. now his my closest best brother.. the one n onli person i could jus be myself without ani hesitation.. the person hu made me n my ex's relationship possible.. n those time in NCC.. the camps, the times we had our trainings.. the tears i've cried n things that i have done wrong.. n those that are right.. many many memories flowed in my mind.. from happy to sad.. n then comes the biggest chapter in my life.. secondary 3 where i stead with my 1st girlfriend.. hawa.. a relationship that was balanced over my mistakes n immaturity.. not understanding n not thinking b4 doin leads to a very very broken heart.. 3 years i spend my time with her almost everidae.. happy memories and sad ones.. regrettable memories and grateful ones.. n learned many things from that relationship.. so i thank you.. 3 years i've spent with u but i did not regret it one bit.. i am grateful to u.. i wont forget u.. after breaking up.. i met many different people.. each one i njoy being with.. each one teaching at least one attribute about life.. i will like to mention each one of them but there is jus too many of them n i'm afraid i might forget sum of them.. n they have supported and be dere for me when i need help especially in school where its been kinda hell for me.. but they're alwaes there for me.. but yet on this night i dont feel sastisfied with wad i have.. something was missing.. my wish for b'dae is just to be a legal smoker.. other then that i didnt have any other hopes.. and i find it kinda sad and ironic.. thank you all those hu know me.. forgive me for all my mistakes.. all in all, life isnt so bad after all n in the end u'll actually find that ur all alone.. happy b'dae to me...
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