isnt it funny that when ur bored
u start thinking negative
like things that arent suppose to be dere like pops up in ur mind?
i had that the whole dae
n when especially ur insecure
u duno hu to trust
wad to do
wad to think
frens hu have been with u for so long
n u start thinking aboud all the things u've done with them
n then suddenli u had this wicked thought
boud how bad he could he or she would have become
backstabbing u
spreading rumors aboud u
i find it funny and at the same time ironic
at how human emotions n feelings are created such a way
that we can neva truly be sure of sumthing
its the modern world
technology gave us many things to keep us occupied
yet right here i'm laughing like an idiot writing a post aboud how bored i am
haha
its reali funny
i was thinking u see
like there was this certain sumone who kept msging me everitime that person's bored
i would like tell that person off n like keep on playing games
n how frustrated that person was
perhaps disappointed
but i can truly understand why now
n i'm laughing aboud it

n then there was this other thought
then when ur bored
perhaps u can use it to reflect aboud sumtin
u dun have to think aboud problems
reflect
think aboud wad have u done so far
the sins u did
embarassments
sweet memories
love
to me boredom gives u time to think aboud ur life for abit other then gettin preoccupied all the time
alwaes bein busy with stuff
games especially for me

as for me
its been awhile i've been playing games
bcoz it jus lost its attraction
i get bored after playing games even for a little while
i look for socialism
looked for frens
new ppl to hangout with
but that cost me my well-being with my mum
who keeps nagging coz i alwaes go out
gotta balance u noe
haha
n yet
yst was still the happiest dae in my life
i wished for more time with her
but i cant be a small boi all the time n keep asking for wishes
gotta fight for it u noe
patience
peserverence
everithing counts
maybe everione has their own views
this is mine

i remember askin frens on 3 qns
life or death?
love or frens?
life partner or companion?
i had one hu saes that each of the above occurs during our lifetime
another was life, frens n companion
bcoz b4 love there's frens
and b4 life partner there was companion
my ans was exactly as the latter as i have had experienced it
i had a fren before love
and a companion before a partner fo life
i wish all that back now
sumthings
are jus fate i guess
if i hadnt separated
i wouldnt have learnt sum important lessons
if i hadnt met her yst
i would have not known how she felt
and if i hadnt styled my hair like i did yst
sumone wouldnt have saw me as edward cullen look alike (granted it was jus the hair)
i'm smiling right now
a wide one
haha
what else to post i do not know
so i guess i'll stop here